House Rules for New subs

Reposted and edited with permission from the Blog bdsmforvanillas written by thesexresearcher.  Thank you!

When you get a new submissive, one of the things you can do to ensure that things run smoothly is to create a set of rules. Rules must be adapted to each individual D/s relationship, but here are a bunch of rules you can choose from or use as inspiration.

General Rules:

  1. The submissive shall not lie.
  2. The submissive shall NOT consider “Nothing” as an appropriate response to “What’s wrong?”
  3. The submissive shall be respectful at all times
  4. The submissive shall not manipulate Dominant, or any situation, in order to achieve their own personal objectives.
  5. The submissive must wear their “collar” at all times.
  6. The submissive’s clothing is subject to the inspection and approval of Dominant.
  7. The submissive shall execute and complete all requests made by Dominant in the manner and time frame they set forth, and agreed upon by the submissive.
  8. The submissive shall discuss with Dominant all decisions of any significance.
  9. The submissive shall submit a journal entry to Dominant each day.
  10. The submissive shall not fear discipline from any matters contained in their journal.
  11. The submissive is always to act in a manner that reflects positively upon their Dominant.
  12. The submissive shall not misuse their safe word. It is appropriately used only at times in which they feel their personal safety, either physical or mental (including fear), is compromised.
  13. The submissive shall refrain from using profane language at all times.
  14. The submissive shall always make physical or eye contact with Dominant when Dominant enters a room.
  15. The submissive must let Dominant take care of them.

Daily Routine:

  1. Before leaving  home every day, submissive must be wearing an item of ownership.
  2. Each morning, sub will write Dom’s name somewhere on sub’s body. Condition – If they are together, Dom will write their name on sub’s body each morning.
  3. Each evening, sub must write an e-mail to Dom describing in detail everything that they plan to wear the following day. Or if together, then let them pick out your outfit. Must include: undergarments, outfit, jewelry, perfume.
  4. Every day after work, when female sub changes out of her work clothes, she must insert the Ben Wa balls into her pussy and wear them until bedtime. She must wear the ben wa balls for all social, exercise, yoga or work out activities.
  5. Every night submissive must masturbate.

Grooming/Hygiene/Body care:

  1. Submissive will adhere to any preference Dominant might have regarding whether they shower or take a bath.
  2. Submissive will adhere to any preference Dominant might have regarding whether they bathe or shower at night or in the morning.
  3. Submissive will also adhere to any preference Dominant has to which body lotion or perfume they use after they bathe/shower.
  4. The submissive will attempt to avoid disease. Should any medical issue arise, the submissive will inform Dominant immediately.
  5. The submissive must brush and floss teeth daily.
  6. Hair must be groomed each day.
  7. Submissive must exercise for a minimum of 30 minutes each day.

Mental:

  1. Submissive must thank Dominant cheerfully
  2. Submissive will never hide their feelings or thoughts from Dominant.
  3. Submissive will apologize whenever they have erred.
  4. Submissive will never hide their tears from Dominant.
  5. Submissive will not borrow trouble and will not worry about things that are out of their control.
  6. Submissive will accept all punishments, knowing they are out of care and/or love.
  7. Submissive will never (or rarely) speak badly of themselves, or there will be consequences.
  8. Submissive will go to therapy, take medicine, or whatever the Dominant says if they have mental issues like anxiety or depression.

Communication:

  1. Submissive will send a “good morning” text to let Dominant know they are awake and to remind them of plans for the day.
  2. Submissive will let Dominant know whenever they leave the house.
  3. Submissive will not pick up their phone and answer it when Dominant is talking to them, unless Dominant says otherwise.
  4. Submissive will ask permission to speak freely when they believe Dominant is making a wrong choice.
  5. Submissive will always address Dominant as “Sir”, or other name both have agreed on. And keep their eyes respectfully lowered. Unless agreed to not do this.
  6. If submissive is concerned that they will deviate from an expectation they are to inform Dominant at once. Preferably before.
  7. Submissive will ask permission to make purchases that they or Dominant do not “Need”.
  8. Submissive will always come to Dominant with any concerns that they have. Submissive will not be afraid to talk to Dominant.
  9. Submissive will respond to text messages from Dominant in a reasonable amount of time or explain why it took so long to answer.

Household:

  1. Submissive will keep the household in presentable order
  2. Submissive will keep dirty laundry to a minimum
  3. Submissive will fold laundry (without complaint)
  4. Submissive will wash dishes everyday (Dishwasher)
  5. Submissive will feed dogs and do their training every morning
  6. Submissive will cook meals at least 3 times a week

Sexual:

  1. Submissive will have sex when Dominant sees fit, unless health prevents them from doing so. Submissive will let Dominant know when they are not feeling well enough for sexual activity.
  2. Submissive will never touch their self in a gratifying way or pleasing way outside of Dominant’s presence or unless they have obtained Dominant’s consent.
  3. Submissive will never touch a toy unless instructed to do so.
  4. Submissive will always thank Dominant after play, or sexual use.
  5. Submissive must also ask permission to orgasm.
  6. If submissive is given instructions regarding masturbation prior to asking, they must follow those instructions to the best of their ability.
  7. If submissive wants to buy a new sex toy they must show Dominant so they can make the decision together.
  8. While in the scene, the submissive will not speak unless to say their safeword or unless the Dominant says they can.
  9. Submissive may ask for a particular sexual act before starting the scene, but not during.
  10. Once the scene has started, the Dominant has full control and expects full cooperation from submissive.

 

 

 

 

 

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Two Ways to Finding Y/your Authentic Self 

Becoming authentic is an individual mission, since each person has their own way of being human, and consequently what is authentic will be different for each individual. Furthermore, personal authenticity is highly contextual, and depends on various social, political, religious and cultural characteristics. But the unique nature of each individual is best seen not in who he is, but in who he becomes, and becoming authentic is a continuous process, not an event. It involves not just knowing oneself, but also recognizing others and the mutual influence between individuals. If the quest for personal authenticity is just for self-fulfillment, then it is individualistic and ego-based; but if it is accompanied with the awareness of others and the wider world, then it can be a worthwhile goal.     From Philosophy Now

Have you ever pondered, “who am I/i really?”  “Who is M/my authentic self?”

Well, i have many times over the years.  It seems as we grow and change, our relationships evolve or end, we move, and find new careers and new lovers, our authentic self changes too.  Authenticity seems to be a hard and never ending quest because people are continually evolving, growing and changing.

Finding Y/your authentic self is about being honest with Y/yourself, being self aware, being humble, and listening to feedback from others without getting hurt or defensive, and then internalizing the feedback that resonates with Y/you.  Those of Y/you who do seek a more authentic self will likely become a happier, and more creative person.  Also, some psychologists say authenticity can lead to improved coping strategies, a stronger sense of self worth, more self confidence, and a higher likelihood of following through on goals.

Don Miguel Ruiz writes in his book The Four Agreements that “our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive and express what we really are.”

As soon as i read that statement i immediately thought about those of U/us living or attempting to live O/our authentic selves, what W/we really are – or are into (KINK or BDSM).  W/we in the Leather BDSM community reportedly have healthier relationships because of the degree to which we have open, honest communication between the people involved prior to establishing a formal relationship or agreeing to a play session.  For there to be open and honest communication Y/you hopefully have done some sort of personal inventory of Y/your life identifying Y/your wants, needs, desires, likes, preferences, and goals, as well as those things Y/you want to avoid, not experience or exclude from Y/your life.

In order for Y/you to begin identifying and understanding Y/your most significant personal values, i have included the list and exercises below:

Step 1: What I/i Value Most…

From this list of values (both work and personal), select the ten that are most important to Y/you – as guides for how to behave or as components of a valued way of life.  Feel free to add any values of Y/your own to the list.

Achievement                                                                Friendships                           Physical challenge

Advancement and promotion                                  Growth                                   Pleasure

Adventure                                                                     Having a family                  Power and authority

Affection (love and caring)                                       Helping other people         Privacy

Arts                                                                                Helping society                   Public service

Challenging problems                                               Honesty                                Purity

Change and variety                                                   Independence                    Quality of what I take part in

Close relationships                                                   Influencing others             Quality relationships

Community                                                                Inner harmony                  Recognition (respect from others, status)

Competence                                                               Integrity                             Religion

Competition                                                              Intellectual status             Reputation

Cooperation                                                              Involvement                     Responsibility and accountability

Country                                                                     Job tranquility                  Security

Creativity                                                                 Knowledge                         Self-Respect

Decisiveness                                                            Leadership                         Serenity

Democracy                                                              Location                              Sophistication

Ecological awareness                                           Loyalty                                 Stability

Economic security                                                Market position                 Status

Effectiveness                                                         Meaningful work              Supervising others

Efficiency                                                              Merit                                    Time freedom

Ethical practice                                                    Money                                 Truth

Excellence                                                             Nature                                 Wealth

Excitement                                                           being around people who
are open and honest        Wisdom 

Fame                                                                       Order (tranquility,

stability, conformity)             Work under pressure 

Fast living                                                            Personal development                                                     Work with others

Financial gain                     

Freedom                                                                                                                                                            Working alone

Step 2: Elimination

Now that Y/you have identified ten, imagine that Y/you are only permitted to have five values. Which five would Y/you give up? Cross them off.

Now imagine that Y/you are only permitted four. Which would Y/you give up? Cross it off.

Now cross off another, to bring Y/your list down to three.

And another, to bring Y/your list down to two.

Finally cross off one of Y/your two values. Which is the one item on the lst that Y/you care most about?

Another way of identifying Y/your authentic self, is to ask Y/yourself the following five questions:

  1. When Y/you were little, what did Y/you want to be when Y/you grew up?   W/we all had dreams when W/we were little, but people get sidetracked from T/their dreams by status, money, responsibility and life.  Picture Y/yourself in Y/your childhood dream.  Do Y/you see that smile and positive energy?  That could be Y/your life.
  2. What makes Y/you laugh?  Laugh at what Y/you find funny.  Who cares if the person next to Y/you is laughing.  Laughing feels good, makes U/us happier people and sets U/us free to enjoy the life W/we are living.  Laughter is a powerful tool that can change Y/your mood and perception of what is happening in the moment.  Enjoy the smile and the feeling of happiness rising inside of Y/you.
  3. What clothes do Y/you feel comfortable in?  This is a serious question.  It doesn’t matter if Y/you like dressing in suits every day or prefer cotton shirts and no shoes, wear what makes Y/you feel comfortable.  i am not suggesting Y/you run naked through the streets or Y/your office, but clothes are a way of expressing Y/yourself and what Y/you wear should be comfortable and should reflect the true Y/you.
  4. What activities do Y/you enjoy?  Discovering these activities will help guide Y/you towards a place where Y/you want to spend time.  By finding and immersing Y/yourself in this place, Y/you will feel happier and more energized.  Ultimately Y/you may find that Y/you want to work in that place, or at least create the possibility to spend more time there.
  5. Who can Y/you be Y/yourself around?  W/we are social creatures by nature, so it is important to spend time with people who make U/us feel good and accept U/us for who W/we really are.  When W/we are with people who do not judge U/us but accept U/us, then W/we are able to express O/our authentic self.

Once Y/you discover Y/your authentic self, Y/you can start to make changes in Y/your life that allow Y/you to be this person.  It is time to face those fears and start Y/your journey toward being Y/your authentic self.  Y/you will be astounded by how Y/your life can become fuller, richer, and happier.                   (Edited from http://www.mindbodygreen.com)

i have changed over the years but one thing has remained a constant even though for years it was a closeted self, so i can’t claim to have been living my authentic self.  That is my love and affinity and passion for the Leather BDSM/KINK community.  In my closet Days my fantasy men were leather clad masculine Doms.  i enjoyed it when a partner was more aggressive, rough, or Dominant.  i was really turned on by the slaps to the ass some men would deliver.  i knew who my authentic self was i was just not able to let him out at the time for various reasons.

my responses to the questions above:

i like men in leather and uniforms; i feel comfortable in Levi’s, boots, leather; i enjoy and feel more comfortable in masculine atmospheres like Leather bars and Leather BDSM gatherings and events; i like BDSM & Kink & Fetish activities; and i can most be myself – my real, authentic self around other Leather BDSM Men/boys.

50 Reasons Why A Submissive Should Serve

Dominant Male Training 
December 16, 2016

Dominant Male Training, Dominatrix Training, female submissive training, Male Submissive Training By The BDSM Training Academy

One of the biggest misconceptions I hear from people about Dom/sub relationships. Is that the relationship is only about sex. While some Dom/sub relationships can be, for many Dom/sub relationships involves so much more.

A Dom/sub relationship gives people involved an opportunity to live a completely harmonious and balanced life with their partner in an emotional, spiritual and physical capacity. It develops a relationship where each partner knows and understands their roles, allowing for a balance between personalities, skills, emotional needs and physical desires. It provides an opportunity for both partners to work together as one harmonious unit to be able to reach the objectives that will better serve the couple. As described in ancient Chinese philosophy, it is the balance between ying and yang. It is this balance that provides such a strong foundation for the Dom/sub relationship.

So why am I telling you this? Why don’t I just explain why slaves should serve? The reason why I express this is because I believe this message becomes lost behind many people’s sexual desires. They forget that some of the biggest reasons for a slave to serve and a Dominant to control are rooted deeply within developing a beautiful loving relationship that provides the support that each partner needs throughout life.

Two people are capable of doing and experiencing so much more, when they are able to live and work together in a harmonious and balanced environment.

Regards,

Master Bishop

One submissive’s perspective:

Relational

1. To create a relationship of trust, care and humor that will sustain and nourish him so that time together is renewing for him

2. To create an environment in which there is the balance between the peace needed when he is stressed and the chaotic playfulness needed when he wants to be energized and have fun

3. To create an environment in which the Dominant may continue to grow and develop in his dominance

4. To be a listening heart and ear

5. To search for solutions and to offer a constructive critique in the process of problem solving

6. To become the submissive/slave with whom he wishes to associate and with whom he wishes to invest his time

7. To be the ying to his yang

8. To co-join my power to his power to enhance his power

9. To understand his wants and desires so as to anticipate and meet them

10. To cultivate the attitudes, thoughts and behaviors that demonstrates the honor and respect due to him

11. To simply be open to him in whatever way he desires

12. To learn to love deeply (The word ‘love’ is used in the sense of ‘to will the very best for another’ and not as a romantic notion.)

13. As a single person living alone for another single person living alone, to watch over him in friendship

Pleasure

14. To bring him pleasure—physical, intellectual and spiritual

15. To be a dinner companion/to provide dinner if not going out

16. To be a film and theatre companion

17. To be a walking/sports companion

18. To be a travel companion when appropriate/possible

19. To fulfill his fantasies

20. To provide for his entertainment

21. To be used sensually and sexually however and whenever he desires and by whomever he wishes

22. To give my body for his enjoyment of BDSM activities/practices/fetishes

Intellectual

23. To be an intellectual sounding board for philosophical and political ideas

24. To research according to his wishes

25. To help in his continuing self-education

26. To challenge and surprise him in such a way that his horizon of understanding is broadened

27. To reflect upon issues and write for him

28. To read for and to him

Medicinal/Physical

29. To be a masseur for painful joints and feet

30. To monitor blood pressure/health and keep records

31. To encourage him in a healthy lifestyle

32. To bath and to provide bodily care for him when necessary/appropriate/desired

33. To worship his body

34. To help and care for him in times of physical need such as sickness, operations etc.

General

35. To do those tasks for which the Dominant has little or no training, resources or time e.g. computer, video editing, etc.

36. To chauffeur when necessary

37. To be a dog/pet minder when necessary

38. To serve and undertake tasks/chores as directed/desired, including domestic chores

Personal

39. Through service to him and through his lessons, to grow and develop in submission

40. To grow as a submissive towards the privilege of giving my all to him as he wills

41. To demonstrate gratitude and appreciation for the time and effort which he puts into planning my training

42. To grow in trust and learning to let go of control

43. To grow in obedience

44. To accept guidance and direction

45. For the stability and structure he brings to my life

46. For the freedom that is his gift to me through his dominance

47. In thankfulness for his acceptance of this flawed human being

48. To delight in his wisdom

49. Through service, to have my own sensual/sexual/BDSM desires met when he pleases

50. For the pleasure of serving him and because it is my choice to serve him

Another submissive’s list:

1. To please Him

2. To service all his sexual desires

3. To make Master proud

4. To provide Master with emotional support

5. To learn how to relinquish all control to Him

6. To understand what He wants and to provide it for Him

7. To share completely in His life.

8. To thank Him for choosing me.

9. To show Him that He is the most important thing in my life

10. To show my gratitude for His love.

11. To show my gratitude for His kindness.

12. To show my gratitude to Him for knowing what is best for me.

13. To show how much I trust Him.

14. To learn patience.

15. To learn to trust and move past my insecurities.

16. To show how proud I am to belong to such a wonderful Master.

17. To learn to anticipate his needs and provide them without being asked.

18. To show Him the extent of my desires for Him.

19. To show my appreciation for His willingness to take care of me.

20. To show my appreciation for how hard He works to take care of me.

21. To show Him that I recognize the sacrifices He has made for me.

22. To help relieve His stress

23. To show that I can give Him a clean organized house to come home to after His long day at work.

24. To show Him that I respect Him as my Master, Husband and Friend.

25. To give him peace of mind when things around Him are chaotic.

26. To provide Him with comfort and understanding.

27. To provide Him with humor when He is sad.

28. To share in His dreams.

29. To grow our relationship beyond sex and duty

30. To experience total submission when my need to be in control is not in His best interest.

31. To learn to love more deeply.

32. To understand that I can be a strong, independent person without being in control.

33. To take responsibility for the day to day chores so that He can concentrate on His life/career/Dominance.

34. To learn to be graceful and respectful to Him at all times.

35. To learn how to put my wants aside to fulfill His first.

36. To ignite His passion

37. To bring Him to sexual heights He has only dreamed about.

38. To show how completely devoted I am to Him only.

39. To prove that I am worthy of His love

40. To prove that I am willing to try to fill all His need and desires.

41. To bring him laughter

42. To give Him my heart, mind, body and soul with complete confidence and trust knowing that He will never hurt me.

43. To give him my support for all the decisions He must make in order to provide for me.

44. To relieve the burdens He carries by taking care of me.

45. To offer my opinions, suggestions and help when He is faced with a dilemma and when He asks.

46. To help create a life-long relationship built on trust, respect, and a deep knowledge of His needs and desires.

47. To fulfill His fantasies.

48. To become more than just His partner but to become His only desire.

49. To earn the right to be – first in His heart, mind, body and soul.

50. To show that I am the one person He has been waiting for. The one person He wants to share His life with. The one person he knows He can trust to always put Him first and to never disrespect, dishonor or disobey Him.

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 This article was edited from a post received from the BDSM Training Academy. It is a great resource and provides a great deal of information to consider for those seeking to enter into a D/s relationship.

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Questions about being a submissive, and Questions for Doms

Have Y/you ever wondered what Y/you were supposed to do, think or feel about being a submissive or a Dominant?  Did you have questions for Doms or subs but were afraid to ask?

Here are a few questions i would ask about being a sub, and some questions i would pose to Dominants, if the opportunity arose.

What questions do Y/you have that Y/you want answered?

Add a comment to this post to respond to a question or to submit a question you have had for a while.

Hopefully we’ll add more questions, get some answers, and open a dialogue between Doms and subs.
                  Questions of Mine

  • Should a boy be clean shaven – not even a moustache 
  • Should a boy keep his hair short?
  • Should a boy shave his pubes and balls?
  • Should a boy shave his ass?
  • Should a boy call every Dom and Master “SIR ” from the very beginning?
  • What do Doms look for in a potential submissive boy?
  • What do Doms really think/feel if a sub uses a safe word?
  • Are most Doms trying to be intimidating or is it the nature of Dominants, or am i being too easily intimidated?
  • Do most Doms have just a few special kinks in Their repertoire or are They well versed in a variety of different skills?
  • What is it with the Cigar craze? 
  •  Don’t Doms know cigars kill the same way cigarettes do, but in a more pervasive, smelly way?
  • Is the role of a Dom becoming fuzzy and more indistinguishable from a submissive?
  • Why is it becoming harder to tell a sub from a Dom in social situations or at Leather bars?
  • Are Doms softening over time?
  • Why is more sex being had at gay male Leather play parties than actual BDSM scenes?
  • At a play party how should a sub ask a Dom to do a scene with him?
  • Is a boy supposed to approach an unfamiliar Dom initially, or is it the Dom’s place to pursue His prospective boy?
  • Are there a lot of Dominants who are actually bottoms in sex, giving the role of top to His boy?
  • What things have You experienced that immediately ended a scene?

i hope more questions are generated and that responses to the current questions will be submitted by many M/men and women sharing T/their perspective. 

Thanks for reading,

boy stray

30 Days to Define your Kink as a submissive – Day 29 & 30

The time has come for me to Define my kink for the last two days.  i think it took a month or more to write responses to all the questions but it has been profound and eye opening.  i know i am submissive, but never really took the time to contemplate what that means to me or how it impacts my life.  If you haven’t been defining your kink as a submissive along with me i encourage you to back track in my Blog to find all 30 Days of questions.  Don’t rush through them one right after the other.  Take a day or so between writing your responses so that you can ponder the question and then write about it as thoroughly as you can.

Is pain or humiliation (spankings for example) a part of your submission? What is your relationship to it? Do you embrace it as a part of your submission, tolerate it as necessary or have some other type of relationship with it?
Over the last twenty five years i have experienced many types of pain mostly from medical issues and surgical interventions.  Some of it mild; some excruciating.  What I can tell Y/you is the unintentional, internal pain from illness or surgery is different from the intentional, consensual infliction on pain in a BDSM setting.  


As a submissive i know that there is a beginning to the pain and a definite endpoint to it.  In this type of scene i am consenting and anticipating the pain.  i know that if the pain surpasses my tolerance level, i can, with one word, stop the infliction of the pain.  


My relationship with the intentional pain is a fondness for the attention of the Dom and the feeling of total submission to His control.  In ways i embrace it, i accept it, i tolerate it, and sometimes i long for it.

i do stop short of calling myself a “pain pig” as some people do.  i am not into the pain just for the pain.  For me it comes with a purpose and is the result of two M/men coming together to explore T/their kink together.


Thanks for reading,

boy stray

Will, Won’t or Maybe Mondays

Today i will just talk about humiliation as a part of a D/s interaction or relationships.  Twice, well, maybe more than that, i have put my safety in jeopardy by getting into the vehicle of an unknown Dom.  But, the topic is about humiliation…both of those encounters began with my public humiliation.  The first one i experienced was with a Brazilian Dom i met on a hookup site.  He was a young, good looking, uncut, married (to a woman) Dom so i felt i could trust Him to be discreet.

On the day of our first meeting He ordered me to wear a tank top tee shirt, extremely short shorts, and no underwear.  Also i was to tie a white ribbon around my balls and to let the end of the ribbon to hang out the bottom of my shorts.  Well, the shorts i had were very short workout shorts and i always wore a jock with them.  The jock greatly enhanced and displayed my bulge through the leg openings.  This was the strategic marketing of my availability at the gay gym.  

If that weren’t enough humiliation, the true test of my submissiveness for Him was that i was to drive to a certain coffee shop about six miles from my house, and i was to stand out front with my head bowed waiting for him to arrive.  i must have stood there ten to fifteen minutes before He arrived.  He then ordered me to keep my head down and not to look at Him.  W/we walked into the coffee shop and sat at a table.  He ordered me to move closer, He reached over and took hold of the white ribbon tugging on it a couple times.  He bought U/us coffee and we left.  i assumed i would follow Him to His house, but He insisted i get into his car.  Briefly i thought about my safety but my dick was making decisions for me at this point.

i got into the passenger seat still averting my eyes and W/we drove off.  W/we drove a short distance, then He ordered me to put a blindfold on, which i did..  Later i learned He didn’t want me to know where W/we were going or His address.  He ordered me down in the seat so neighbors wouldn’t see as He drove into the garage.  i followed Him into His house.  Again, i thought He could kill me and no one would have a clue about my whereabouts.  But i still went in.  

i allowed myself to be cuffed behind my back after undressing.  

Previously online He told me about a smegma fixation He has.  He asked if i preferred clean or with “cheese”.  i said clean.  However, when He wanted a blow job all i could think about was smegma – even though He was clean.  So, i began gagging and choking with the thought of unclean dick in my mouth.  He said, “you are a lousy cocksucker, I’ll have to train you to be better at it.”  The rest of the scenario i will not discuss simply because it was uneventful and safe.  He took me back to my car and i never saw Him again.  i chose not to do that again with Him!

The second encounter with public humiliation was eerily similar – can Doms not come up with an original idea for public humiliation?

In NO WAY am i encouraging you to submit to public humiliation or putting yourself in the kind of dangerous situations i describe in my post.  

How many mistakes did i make during that scenario?

Always put Y/your safety first.

Humiliation can be public or private.  But it must be consensual!

Although i was embarrassed each time i submitted to public humiliation, i felt i was displaying my commitment to submission for everyone to see.

Now that i am more knowledgeable about BDSM, safety, and the practice of safe, sane and consensual kink, i am less likely to consent to public humiliation, and definitely will not get in a car that can be driven anywhere potentially putting me in danger.

Be safe!

Thanks for reading,

boy stray

Have you ever consented to public humiliation?  If so, i would love to hear your story.  Share with me in comments ot PM me.  Thanks

30 Days to Define your Kink as a submissive – Day 28

Has your submission ever let you down? 
Yes it has.  submissives are a dime a dozen.  Most of the posts on FetLife and Recon.com are from submissives.  In that way my submission lets me down.  It would be so much easier to hookup, find a long term partner or have play sessions if only i was a Dom.  But, it is not my nature.  So, i continue to wait, update my profile and pictures, and try to integrate more into the Leather BDSM community.



Have you ever been criticized for your submission? 
The only real criticism i have received is the one i told Y/you about before.  It was the story of the guy on the hookup site bullying me because i choose to call myself a “boy”.  i retaliated and then blocked him.  Probably should have just let it go, but i didn’t.


Have you ever regretted being or feeling submissive in a moment or in a relationship? 
i have no regrets for being a bottom or submissive.  i have had great sex and some interesting events related to my being submissive.  Just a quick anecdote: we hosted a couple of gay Puerto Rican soccer players in town for a tournament. They spoke little to no English and i spoke no Spanish, but after my partner went to work the next morning one of the men came to my bedroom, got in the bed nude and proceeded to fuck the daylights out of me.  He was good looking and hung, uncut.  He sensed or somehow knew that i was a submissive bottom boy and would gladly allow him to do as he pleased.


Have you ever looked back and realized you made a mistake and how did you handle your submission going forward from that?
Oh, certainly.  i have made plenty of mistakes over the course of my life.  And continue to.  Each mistake or lapse in judgment was an opportunity to learn and grow…and hopefully to not make the same or even similar mistakes.  Several of those mistakes i have posted about over these past few months.  If Y/you are interested in learning from my poor choices, Y/you can read back through my earlier posts.

30 Days to Define your Kink as a submissive 

Day 25: Are there items, objects or rituals that represent or help you express submission? If not, have you ever thought of adding or being gifted one? Is there a special significance to these objects or rituals?

i wrote before that one of the things i do – not sure i would call it a ritual –  is to always stand in a military “at ease” position with hands behind my back and head slightly bowed with eyes averted from any Dom who may be present.  Also, most of the time i wear a leather band on my right wrist as a sign to others and as a reminder to me that i am a leather submissive.

 i have no other rituals or objects used to express my submission.  It would be wonderful to be gifted an item from a Dom that is meant as a visible sign of my submissiveness. 



Day 26: What are the qualities you seek in a dominant partner and why? Are some qualities deal-breakers as in “must” haves or “must not” have?

Qualities i seek in a Dominant are knowledge and experience in BDSM, a playful nature yet strict in His enforcement of protocol, duties, and the behavior of His sub, yet not aggressive or just plain ole mean under pressure or stress.

Deal breakers would be refusal to negotiate limits and preferences, and in writing a contract; a lack of interest or concern regarding training or for the nurturing of the sub; and having a tendency to being mean under pressure and taking out stress and frustration on the submissive. 



Day 27: Do you have submissive desires or fantasies that you have yet to be able to explore? Do some of your desires confuse or frighten you? Do they excite you?

At this time, a “real” session, scene or play session have only been a fantasy.  i have had isolated activities and experiences, and even paid a Pro Dom to work out some fantasies, but i have never been approached by a Dom who follows through and has a real time play session from start to finish with me. 

The only thing that really confuses me or frightens me is the lack of opportunities for real time play.  i have not been able to make myself the kind of sub that is attractive to a Dom to even have Him approach me for play.  i fear i may never experience a full, real BDSM session.


Thanks for reading,

boy stray

30 Days to Define your Kink as a submissive 

Day 23: Is there anything about submission (yours or what you see in others) that you question, dislike or repels you? Was there a time you questioned or were resistant to your own submissive feelings?

Sometimes, especially when in the company of non Leather folks, i get twinges of sub shame and embarrassment.  At times, not too often, but occasionally i feel judged or pigeonholed as a leather sub who is passive, used, abused, and having no choice or say in what “happens” to me in a BDSM dynamic.  i don’t feel like going into educator mode explaining about roles, choices, contracts, negotiations, limits, safe words, and just admitting that the things that are “done” to me are done with my permission because all BDSM activities are between consenting adults.

As far as being resistant to an aspect of being a submissive i feel a bit of ambivalence regarding subs into piss and scat.  i described my foray into play parties last week, but the one thing i don’t think i mentioned was the piss boy who was stationed in the restroom.  he stayed in there the whole night and was given a donation of $5 by each person who wanted to piss on him or have him “drink from the tap.”  i really had to piss bad by the time i left the party, but I would not #1 pay $5 to pee, and #2 pee on someone who spent the whole night serving as a toilet.  i like the idea of 1:1 piss play but not in a situation like that.  Part of me felt sad for him, but i have to remember and remind myself from time to time that his kink is not my kink, but his kink is ok! 

Day 24: What are the emotions that most directly let you access submission? What feelings do they inspire?

i think I am a happy, joyful submissive.  i am a long term service oriented caregiving professional having worked in healthcare for many years.  In ways that profession is one of submissiveness. Wanting to do for and care for others!   A service oriented submissive.  To put myself second – behind the person who is most important – whether that person is a Dom, or a patient.  To take care of someone well is a source of pride, satisfaction, and joy for me.  It instills a deeper sense of self worth and self esteem.