Lots of texts messages, titillating electronic conversations, planning and scheduling happened between the Dom and me.
Then, it finally happened. Schedules aligned, His health was stable, my fears were lessened and my desire for a real BDSM play session was the only thing i could think of.
i was ordered to wear leather. i did. i arrived exactly at the designated time. When i walked into the condo Sir was seated on the sofa wearing a black SIR t shirt and red nylon shorts. Also, He was tethered to a really long oxygen tube. i stood at attention awaiting directions, orders, the offer to be seated or the offer of a drink. I received none. He proceeded to talk, and talk, and talk. Approximately an hour later i was shown the balcony area and the bedroom…And a walkin closet full of leather vests, pants, covers and caps, an extremely heavy full leather jacket and dozens of t shirts. Then, i was shown the toy box filled with everything you could think you might need. A flogger and paddle hung on the wall.
By now i had been there going on two hours. And so far no sex, no play, no nudity, and not even a drink of water.
He decided it was time to play. Mostly He was feeling up to deep kissing which was very sensual and a big turnon. Also, He was into receiving oral sex. He did return fellatio with a bit of genital pain included…a nice touch. He did do some impact play while He was being done – such as hard slaps to the pecs and ass slaps.
He wanted desperately to get off, but could only accomplish that with intense pain to His nipples. i bit one so hard i feared severing it or at least inducing severe bleeding. The other nipple i gripped tightly, pinched and twisted as hard as i possibly could. He exploded in relief.
In the post coital conversation He said He was more bottom, a pain pig, wanted to get fucked, couldn’t be with a total bottom, and how much He relies on intense pain to reach orgasm. This is everything i am and the opposite of what i want in my Dom.
He is a Dominant who is a sexual bottom??
i am confused. Disappointed.
i want a Dom who is a Top – a total Top. He may have been a sub bottom before, but now He needs to be exclusively a Top. i am a bottom, a sub bottom. Not a switch. Not versatile. A Bottom.
Saturday He texted wanting to flog me. i wanted to in ways, but made up an excuse so i wouldn’t have to go. i remain disappointed that He is the opposite of what i want/need. i need to be honest with him but i am not sure i can be. But, i will try.
boy stray’s quest continues…
Thanks for reading,