The Master, an update

i wrote about my attempting to develop a Master/slave relationship with The Master.  I was checking in daily with Him as ordered, but hadn’t gotten a response till this afternoon.  He ordered me to send a full front torso picture, which i did.

He did not respond.  I messaged him three times over the next 18 minutes.  The system indicated He had looked at the picture.

What does that mean?  i immediately turned it inward and felt judged, rejected, and embarrassed.  i went immediately to self body shaming. Then after a few hours i turned it around.  Perhaps He was called away from His computer or phone due to work or family responsibilities.  Maybe there was a loss of power due to winter storms.

Or maybe i was rejected because of my body.  

i have been dumped from conversations before online after sending pics.  Now, i am not ugly!  My body is a bit…a little thick in the torso from having HIV for 33 years.  (Maybe i will tell you more about that later).  My legs and arms are a bit thin but not skeletal.  i know i need to go to the gym and not just drive by them, and i will soon.  But, all in all i look pretty good for what i have been through.  This year alone was extremely difficult.  (More later). 

Back to this Master.  At first when i didn’t get a response i apologized for my body appearance.  The next message was a short explanation of my body.  The last one I proclaimed my pride in my looks.  If He has no further contact with me so be it.  If He does contact me again…well, i will be grateful for His attention and our continued vetting of each other.

i do hope He is a bigger and better man than the impression i was left with today.  Trying hard not to jump to conclusions too quickly.

i would love to hear Y/your comments, questions and if Y/you have suggestions or constructive criticism please share that in the comments section or PM me any time.
Thanks for reading,

boy stray 

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4 thoughts on “The Master, an update

  1. Some Dom’s Luke to make you insecure or keep you off guard something I personally do not like. I am not sure about this one. It is possible he got busy. As far as I am concerned, you look awesome and if he doesn’t want you, it is his loss!

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  2. I’m sorry you are feeling bad. There is something about being submissive that makes us even more vulnerable and open to insecurities. It sucks!

    You look great! It sounds like leaving a sub in a state of anticipation may be his thing. Some people like it. I personally hate it! I wouldn’t immediately jump to the conclusion that he isn’t interested. It hasn’t been that long since you messaged him. He may have had to step away for a minute. Keep us updated and go do something that keeps you away from the computer for a few hours!

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